All that said and done is enough; so don’t hang around just turn around and done look back because it’s too late to apologize it’s too late for an apologies you had your chance to tell the truth and all you did was run ad now you want to talk after all these days, and the thing that got me so mad is that you acted like it was all my fault. But you know what that’s all you had to say just walk away with shame because you blew it you had your chance and you blew it so don’t you dare tell me it’s my fault iam not the one with the full heart you don’t have read hands from trying to stop the bleeding in my chest just walk away because all that’s been said and done is enough for me and now I can finally see no more blood on my hands now I can wash them and start to rebuild my hear so thank you for teaching me something new after all that’s said and done that’s when you know it’s enough of the heartache. 1/12/09 – 1/16/09
Tell me what you want from me cause I don’t know what you want from me you make me so mad and frustrated you tell me it’s over but you go around like it’s never changed your words are so miss leading and your action are poorly chosen I don’t know where to turn to now cause you can’t be trusted any longer and you can’t be true to the ones you love so it over and done with I don’t want you any longer cause you don’t make so miss leading and I don’t think that I can call you my friend any longer cause it’s over and done with and now it’s goodbye. 9/8/08
Nothings ever stays the same years go by people change love will be lost and found friendships fade secrets come about. But our memories of those years last forever. Words can be lost but can also be found. Dreams last a lifetime and Scars never fade. Rules are rules they are what last forever but are now being seen as more of life’s guidelines. There’s always a formula to things or patterns. Before you make a decision think when I make this decision the rest of the time of issues is solved of course you can interfere but only if you can see the mistake your about to make nothings perfect I know but don’t not notice what you’re doing. It’s so easy to avoid mistakes and regrets. Everyone has secrets a story regrets lies told or untold.
Confused and conflicted that’s what Iam feeling, all alone but with this one question haunting me everywhere I go can you help me? Help me make the right decision cause love only comes once and I don’t want to lose it. But don’t want to miss out on it either. So will you. Will you help me out? All I need is just a push.
The hardest part is admitting that you have a problem. Then There’s saying it out loud to your self and to the ones that mean the most too you. But then there’s wanting help to get better, both physically and mentally. In the end it’ll be the greatest accomplishment of your life. But the first step is always the hardest. What one may need to realize is that we are all capable of doing anything, we have the will power. We just need to find it, dig it up and use it.
Iv been spoken to like I was nothing; being told that I haven’t been trying hard enough. That my excuses aren’t good enough and that I wont amount to anything. I thought I would never see anyone other then someone on television ever been talk to like that. But tonight I have and for the first time I didn’t react I did and said nothing. I stood still for a little bit and then got angry. Wanting to throw and hit the person in the face. Then I felt sad and had flashbacks of the day I was that person sitting taking it all in all the hurtful words. I felt even worse when I started to hear them cry but felt a sense of courage for them. See I would of ran and yelled get out/go away. But they just sat their for 45 min being told these horrible things and I wish I had their courage to sit there and take it but I ran and retaliated. I have never imagined someone saying the hurtful cruel words that were spoken to me be told to someone els. Feather more I can’t believe I stood by. But I have all the intentions of telling them how brave and strong they were to sit there and take it. How I they are worth it and how much they deserve the respect they need from someone. Not to hear the negativity from someone that truly has the issues and who is what they describe others. I will and want to tell them how they don’t need someone like that in their life.